Oh man. Government all up in my business.

Urgh, I seem to be having a slight problem. 

I have no idea what I want to do in ,my life. Yes I'm in college studying psychology, but honestly, it's not doing anything for me! I feel terrible not knowing what I'm supposed to do in life and it's confusing me to no end. I know I like education.. But I hate that the government delegates what we should know. And then on top of that, each state in the U.S. has different "standards" for learning. Honestly, who ever thought that was a good idea?!?! 

I hate the idea of being dictated to especially when it comes to what I need to learn to succeed in life. It's aggravating to have to bend to someone who thinks they know me better than myself.  I understand there has to be some order, but obviously our government isn't doing a good job of it. America boasts being the top time and time again and yet when it comes to education we aren't even in the top 20.

Since when is that something to shirk on? Since when is education not the main focal point of life itself?!

I hate being dictated to when in fact the dictation is holding me back form excelling. AND ON TOP OF THAT they want to charge tens of thousands of dollars a year for students to get a higher education!!! 

WHY?

Why make a society that requires people to be educationally sound to succeed to and then put them so far in debt to get that education?! I wonder if anyone actually realizes that this money problem is causing our society to suffer. Honestly! If no one can afford higher education, no one is going to pursue it, America plummets in socioeconomic standing and then we all FAIL TOGETHER!!!!! My goodness is it that hard to just make some things free for the betterment of the whole? We need to make sure we stay on par with those around us so that next generations can flourish and become trail blazers just like their ancestors before them. We cannot allow us, as a nation, society, or as an entire species to become stagnant in our development. If we don't learn, and continue to do well, we will not continue to press foreward and that is something I am extremely passionate about and.. and.. I think I've just realized what I want to do with my life.

Well, dear readers, look out for me in a few years because I believe I've decided to become an educational advocate. I believe I'd also need to get onto the board of education. But this is something very important. Time to do research and learn what I need to do to find my way into the system to fix it. Ugh, gonna get off of here now. See you once I've got things somewhat sorted out Readers. 

Questionnnnn!

I have a question that's very odd but, who exactly looks at my blog? I don't have an issue with it, I was just wondering where my blog would even be up to be seen! It's weird seeing 133 pageviews sometimes mainly because I didn't think anyone would ever actually look at my writing. 

Weird.

Welllllllll It's nice to finally have someone to talk to that doesn't mind my ramblings (IF you don't mind my ramblings at least) I don't mind sharing my life! It's kind of cool to see people looking at what I write even if it is just random musings. If it's even somewhat amusing to someone out there, I guess I can entertain for a little while. Who knows, it might be fun.

Meh, I hope I don't disappoint too too much for anyone! 

Such Fun.
Very Surprise.
Wow.

Those Nostalgia Feels Tho...

I am a YouTube addict.

YouTube offers me nearly all I need.

Music, Movies, AMV's, Vlogs, Playthroughs,

You should be seeing  my point in this.

Gah, YouTube is awesome!

That being said, I should probably get back to the title issue. Nostalgia... For some reason I had this burning need to get on YouTube and look old songs from my child hood. Probably not the best idea seeing as it lead to this 2 hour long thread of music and memories that were hooked along. It was like reliving the best times of my young life all over again. I saw my elementary school, my teachers, the remnants of my life that all to easily I had forgotten. How in the world have I gotten so caught up in the world that I have forgotten how to live? That carefree feeling I had, was hardly something only of the past. I should always be striving to find that happiness because I WANT that back! For 2 hours I lived in complete bliss. When had that even stopped? Who or what had taken that feeling from me? I mean really. I can't see why I would voluntarily let something so pure and sweet go. 

People might say that this is just a stage of growing up, but I think differently. I believe that growing up is when you find the things that make you find that happiness all over again. That is my honest truth. I want to find the things that make me happy. The things that make those Nostalgia Feels a real, everyday happening. I think that'll be my life long challenge. 

But first, I believe I'll need more music!

Very Stress. Such Logic. Wow.

Hmm, for the first time in a while I have nothing to say. It's an odd feeling to not .. feel for anything. I'm just here drifting. And even more odd, I don't think it's not a bad thing to not feel for a moment. Life is very hectic and ever moving... for me at least. So man things need my attention: family, work, class, church, friends. Gah! Well at least for now I have a moment where I'm not being stressed by anything!! I think it might just be because I don't have any exams to really be studying for, but maybe I'm just learning how to handle stress better?

I don't know ><

All I do know is that if you have a lot going on in your life, the first thing you need to do is put everything you have to do out on a table and plan everything. EVERYTHING!! It saves you from this sinking feeling that stress brings sometimes. If you have a plan of what you need to do, it just makes things easier to get done. Now, I am definitely not perfect.. I almost never stick to the plans I write out and that sucks butttttttttttt, at least I'm trying and the times that I do, everything goes great! I'm so scatterbrained sometimes >< mmh. But at least I'm a less stressed scatterbrain. I think that's a plus right? Meh. I'll say yes for now! Now, onto class. and maybe I'll write some more...


If it fits my schedule of course ;)

Why the Hell?....

   First I want to say, that I am in no way a credible source for tips on relationships or love, I just like to point out things that many other people don't see , or need help to see. One thing in particular that I've wanted to yell at people over and over again is this:

  IF YOU LOVE SOME ONE, YOU DO NOT HOLD THEM BACK FROM MAKING PROGRESS WITH THEIR LIVES. 

   I happened to be at my friends house visiting, and with us was her boyfriend. I, being a year older, was giving some tips on what you need to look in to when college hunting. Now, my friend had decided  a while ago that she was going to attend BYU-I. She had even been mad at her older brother for going there before her (which was really adorable). She had visited the campus and decided that it was the school for her, perfect class sizes, perfect campus, perfect city. Now  all these years later, sitting in this room, her brand new boyfriend decided to "lay down the law" telling her that he was not intending to let her leave him and that she should attend the local college. I became a little hostile I will admit.. But you have to understand that loving someone means supporting their decisions. This goes sooooo much more for decisions that are going to effect something so important as schooling. Education is the key, in this time, to everything one could hope for. Good jobs come from good grades. With good jobs come good money and with good money comes a good livelihood. Now, if someone loved you, why would they want to hold you back from excelling? To me that makes no sense.

   Now my advice is this. Love is not selfish. To be mature in love is to say that you care for someone to the point that you don't care if they will have to travel clear across the nation, you will not hinder them doing great things in life. You aren't' letting them go, you're still a couple. Now, let them go and mature and grow up. Let them have the time to make themselves better and you take the time to make yourself better as well so that when the time does come for you two to get back together, you'll be ready and able to make important decisions to benefit  you as a whole. I'm just  saying that if someone doesn't have your best interest in mind, they shouldn't be around you.

But again, maybe that's just me.